girl in the mirror

There’s a girl in the mirror and she won’t look away
My scary like rain from the wars of the days
Stupid, ugly, broken, I whisper the names
Every cruel little word that they carved in my brain
Too loud, too strange, not pretty enough
I say it out loud like I’m calling their bluff
But the glass never argues, it just lets it be
All the worst parts of them staring back out at me

I see you sometimes in the places I go
Laughing with people I’ll never quite know
The kind of laughter that fills up the air
While I’m in the corner pretending I’m not there
You shine without trying, it’s easy for you
Like the whole world just knows what you’re meant to do
And I wonder what it’s like to live in your skin
To never feel small in the places you’ve been
If love is a ladder reaching up to the stars
I’m the girl on the ground counting all of the scars
Watching you shine like the world’s favourite light
While I’m learning how shadows survive through the night

I was never the girl you noticed in the crowd
Never the voice that was meant to be loud
I’m the almost and nearly, the one in between
The part of the story that’s cut from the scene
You’re every beautiful thing I can be
A perfect reflection of everything free
And loving you feels like I’m losing the fight
Against every mirror that tells me I’m right

Night I replay every word that you said like a movie
The stuck running loops in my head
Every smile you gave, every look that you threw
I keep wondering if one was meant for me too
But deep down I know how the story would go
I’m feeling you never quite notice or know
Just a quiet heart beating somewhere out of you
Loving a life that was never meant to love you

Maybe I was never meant to shine like the rest
Maybe some hearts are just built for the test
But even a shadow still reaches for sun
Even a lonely heart hopes it’s the one

I was never the girl you noticed in the crowd
Pretend that I’m singing it painfully loud
For every outsider who learnt how to hide
For every quiet war we fight inside
You’re still every dream I’ll never quite touch
But maybe one day I won’t hate this so much
And maybe the mirror will soften too
When I love the mirror that tells me I’m right