Options (Meaning)

Is it a relapse if it’s just a drink?
A picture perfect party full of friends I used to keep
My favourite vices I used to need
Lined up on the countertop, and they’re calling out to me

Cameron sets the scene with quiet tension. He’s at a familiar place, a party filled with people he once shared a different life with. The vices that once provided comfort and escape — alcohol, substances, or unhealthy habits — are all within reach again, calling out to him. But he’s conflicted. He wonders if giving in, just for one night, would really mean a relapse. This moment isn’t just about temptation — it’s about the weight of choices and the fine line between control and surrender.

Would I still survive it, or have I lost my edge?
You’re never quite alive as when you’re shaking hands with death
Would I still remember how to lose my mind?
Oh, I’d like to think I might

Here, he’s questioning his own strength. Could he go back to that life and make it out again? Or has he grown too distant from that chaotic version of himself? There’s a strange thrill in being so close to danger, where the adrenaline makes you feel more alive. Part of him wonders if he still has what it takes to lose himself completely — to let go and forget everything. But this thought isn’t driven by a desire to fall back — it’s more about curiosity, a quiet yearning to see if that reckless part of him still exists.

I won’t, but I could pull that bottle off that shelf
It helps me cope knowing I could be that version of myself
Could disappear for a week, for a month, for a year
Wake up at home or in a coffin
It’s nice to know I got options

This is where the conflict becomes clearer. He doesn’t want to give in, but just knowing that he could brings him some comfort. It’s like having an escape plan tucked away, even if you never use it. He’s aware that stepping back into that world means risking everything — disappearing for days, months, or even forever. But keeping that door slightly open makes the burden of staying sober a little easier to bear.

Oh, I can hear that quiet knock
I open up the door I could’ve swore I triple locked
Invite my skeletons to come on in
With their hollow eyes and that awful itch
And we’re chewing through the air to tell a story

This is where his demons return. Despite all his efforts to lock them out, they manage to find a way back in. His skeletons — his past mistakes, regrets, and addictions — come knocking with a quiet persistence. They don’t need an invitation; they slip in, filling the air with memories and unspoken pain. And once they’re in, they don’t just linger — they devour the space, reminding him of the stories he’s been trying to leave behind.

Would I still survive it, or have I lost my edge?
You’re never quite alive as when you’re shaking hands with death
Would I still remember how to lose my mind?
Well, I might just give it a try

The temptation grows stronger here. He’s on the edge, dangerously close to giving in. He knows the risk, but that familiar feeling of walking the line between life and death still calls out to him. There’s an addictive rush in losing yourself, even if it means self-destruction. He’s not saying he will fall back — but for a brief moment, he entertains the thought, almost daring himself to see if he can still handle that chaos.

Oh, I got options
Long as that devil on my shoulder and my angel keep talking
I got options, oh, I got options
Long as my hell ain’t frozen over, oh, it’s nice to know

Now, he acknowledges the constant battle within. The devil whispers temptation while the angel tries to keep him grounded. As long as both voices are still arguing, he knows he hasn’t completely lost himself. He’s still standing at a crossroads, where the possibility of falling is always present, but the fact that he’s still fighting means there’s hope. Even if his life feels like hell sometimes, at least it’s not frozen over — meaning he hasn’t completely given up yet.

That I won’t, but I could pull that bottle off that shelf
It helps me cope knowing I could be that version of myself
I’ll disappear for a week, for a month, for a year
Wake up at home or in a coffin
It’s nice to know I got options

In the end, he circles back to that same dangerous comfort. He knows he has a choice — a choice that could either bring him back home or bury him forever. And while he’s choosing to stay on the safer path, the fact that he could take the other one gives him a sense of control. It’s a bittersweet conclusion where he’s not celebrating victory, but he’s also not surrendering. For now, knowing that he has options — even dangerous ones — is enough to keep him going.