i hope i never fall in love (Meaning)

Take another page from my heroes’ book
I haven’t slept for days, and the pressure’s cooked
I know with all the fish in the deep blue sea
I’m gonna get bored and take you home with me

Maren opens with a sense of exhaustion and restlessness. She’s been running on empty, maybe emotionally drained, maybe just caught in the cycle of expectations. There’s something almost cynical in the way she views love here—she knows there are plenty of options out there, but none of them feel particularly meaningful. The idea of “taking another page from my heroes’ book” suggests she’s learned from others who have been through similar struggles, yet it doesn’t make things any easier.

I hope I never fall in love
I hope I never fall in love again
You can hold me to that
I hope I never fall in love
I hope I never fall in love again
And I’m not taking it back

The chorus is raw and definitive—love has burned her, and she doesn’t want to go through it again. This isn’t a temporary heartbreak or a passing frustration; it’s a decision she’s making with full conviction. She’s not just saying it in the heat of the moment—she means it, and she’s daring anyone to challenge her on it.

I can be a good girl, stay on the wagon
Keep it to myself if it ever happens
Throw myself a party, and I’ll drink champagne
I probably won’t be happy, but I’ll dance in vain

She paints a picture of self-restraint, as if she’s trying to convince herself that she can live without love. The phrase “stay on the wagon” suggests resisting temptation, as if love is an addiction she’s determined to kick. But beneath the surface, there’s a quiet sadness—she imagines celebrating alone, toasting to something that doesn’t actually bring her joy. “Dancing in vain” implies that even if she puts on a happy face, it won’t change the emptiness inside.

And when the lonely feelings creep in
Ah, I won’t let my willpower weaken

Loneliness is inevitable, and she knows it. But she’s determined not to cave in, not to let herself fall back into love’s trap. It’s almost like she’s bracing for those moments of weakness, preparing herself to fight against them.

Ooh, I’m a woman of my word
Love, you only did me dirty
Forever was a fuckin’ lie
So goodbye, you only made it worse

There’s bitterness and finality in these lines. She’s not just done with love—she’s calling it out for what it is, a deception that only left her worse off. “Forever” was supposed to mean something, but to her, it was just an empty promise. There’s no longing, no second-guessing—just a firm goodbye to something that failed her.

I was once a bitch when it came to love
I’d get a little hit and be all messed up
But I looked up from the bottom, and I saw the light
God as my witness, that was the last time

She acknowledges who she used to be—someone who fell hard, who got swept up in the highs of love only to crash every time. But she’s changed. Hitting rock bottom gave her clarity, and now she’s making a vow to herself. This is the last time she’ll let love break her.

This song isn’t just about heartbreak—it’s about survival. Maren is reclaiming her power, rejecting the idea that love is worth the pain it brings. She’s not wallowing; she’s making a choice. But beneath her defiance, there’s an undercurrent of vulnerability. No matter how strong she sounds, there’s always the lingering question—can she really shut love out forever? Or is she just trying to convince herself she can?