If I Showed You (Meaning)

If I showed you every heathen
Every slight, every fault you would leave me
And if I told you every reason
That I’m jaded, uneven

Henry fears that revealing his true self—his flaws, past mistakes, and emotional scars—will drive the person he loves away. There’s a deep insecurity here, a belief that if someone saw every broken piece of Henry, they wouldn’t want to stay.

Baby, you’d be terrified of me and all my ghosts
Terrified of my mind

This is an admission of inner darkness. The “ghosts” are past regrets, traumas, or mistakes that haunt Henry. His mind is a chaotic place, and Henry worries that if someone truly understood what goes on inside, they’d be afraid.

It would take some time to find the answers
‘Cause I buried the memories in ransom
‘Cause you don’t even know the half of this, a half of me is fractured
You would let me go if you could see the tragedy I’m masking
I know, I know, I know
And I don’t wanna scare you away, I’m nervous
Know I got some demons you don’t deserve
It would take some time to find the answers

Henry admits that he’s hiding parts of himself, burying painful memories deep inside. The idea of “burying the memories in ransom” suggests he’s locked them away, but at a cost. Half of Henry is broken, but he tries to keep up a strong front. He’s terrified that if his partner saw his pain, they’d leave. Despite Henry’s struggles, he doesn’t want to push them away—he knows they deserve better than the weight of his demons.

Crossfire chaos, buildings are burning to ash
Inside my head it’s war
Shots ring, waves crash
It’s not a place for you
If I let you in

Henry’s mind is a battlefield. The imagery of fire, war, and destruction paints a picture of inner turmoil. It’s as if his thoughts are constantly at war with themselves, and Henry warns his partner that stepping into his world might be dangerous. He’s unsure if he should let them in, fearing they’ll only get hurt.

Baby, you’d be terrified of me and all my ghosts
Terrified of my mind

This line repeats, reinforcing the fear that Henry’s partner won’t be able to handle the weight of his past and his struggles.

It would take some time to find the answers
‘Cause I buried the memories in ransom
‘Cause you don’t even know the half of this, a half of me is fractured
You would let me go if you could see the tragedy I’m masking
I know, I know, I know
And I don’t wanna scare you away, I’m nervous
Know I got some demons you don’t deserve
It would take some time to find the answers

This song is a raw and emotional confession of insecurity, trauma, and the fear of being truly seen. Henry captures the struggle of loving someone while battling inner demons, making it a deeply relatable and hauntingly beautiful piece.